I'm so lonely, I'm going to die alone?

The thing is, when I talk to girls online, they like me, they think I'm sweet but in real life they don't look twice. I get rejected constantly. That whole myth about there being someone for everyone is horseshit, its a total myth and just romanticised fiction. I know plenty of people in their 50's who are unmarried. People will say there is more to life than a relationship, but I disagree. I want nothing more than somebody to love and spend the rest of my lonely existence with. Confidence is important people will say, but I can't just snap my fingers and become confident, numerous rejections and years of being picked on and being an outcast have taught me I have few if any redeeming features to be proud of. How can a girl love me if I don't love myself people will say? Well how can I love myself when no one else loves me, apart from my mother (and even she expresses frequent dissapointent toward me). How can I love myself, when society has told me in no uncertain terms that I am not somebody who has anything to love about them? How can I love myself when I have nothing about me to love, I have no skills, talents, I am ugly, boring and unabe to change no matter how hard I try. I have tried to improve my looks but I am beyond redemption in that department, as the saying goes you can't polish a turd. Yes I am a nice person and perhaps some girls want that, but not girls in Hull. Not girls in my city, and even uming there is someone out there for me, she might live in ottawa, or venice or chicago for all I know. Even if this mythical girl exists ad we are destined for each other it is more than coincidental that she would live in Hull. And saying I am young and should be patient, yes I am young, and I want to change while I am young so I'm not asking this at 40, and as for being patient, well a girl isnt just going to fall into my lap now is she? The fact is it would be selfish of me to make a girl settle for me, and it isnt like I don't put myself out there, it's just that they aren't interested. I can't stand to live a life without love, for all it's ups and downs it's what I want the most, maybe I sound desperate but I'm not afraid to admit I need a woman to be complete, people who play it cool and pretend they like being single are either strange or have far more patience than me and self control. I know heartbreak is tough but it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. What can I do? Girls round my area aren't interested, I get constantly rejected, I have nothing to offer a woman, dont give me cliches, i need help